We Can Never Can Tell

So risk. Risk being vulnerable. Risk falling in love first. Risk saying yes even if you are terrified the other person will turn away. Risk being you when your fears tell you to be anything but. Risk putting boundaries in place and saying no. Risk being worth someone's effort. Risk asking for love. Risk anything that stands between you and your ability to be the loving presence you are when fear is running the show. Love may be rusty, but don't let that stop you. It's like riding a bike. Accept the risk. Get on and start pedaling. It will all come back- it always does."

--Rhonda Britten

Hindi ko kilala si Rhoda pero natuwa ako sa sinabi nya. Winner ang lola. Powerful. Sinasabihan tayo na huwag maging duwag at huwag matakot sa pakikibaka sa buhay lalo na sa love (I am so lalim today...I don't know why). Saan kaya hinugot ni Rhoda ang drama niya? Nabigo na ba sya? Nagwagi? Hindi pa kaya sya nagmamahal? Bakla kaya si Rhoda at ang totoo nyang pangalan ay Rholando (yes, with an H)? Single kaya siya? Single mom kaya? Married? Divorced? With children? With child? O just a child?

Pagpasensyahan nyo na. Malikot lang minsan utak ko. Kapag may nababasa kasi akong mga quotable quotes, iniisip ko kung bakit nila nasabi yun at kung anong perspektibo meron sila. Ang isang bagay, maaring makita mula sa ilang daang direksyon. Ika-nga nila, they are different ways of reading. Pero may mga pagkakataon na swak ang reading ng isang tao at BAM. SAPOL! Masasabi mo na 'Omy! Yes! Like that! I can so relate! That's me! Perfetch!' (Kung eksaktong yan din ang sinsasabi mo sa utak mo, either bakla ka o soulmates tayo! Pakilala ka sa akin. Mag-comment ka rito! Hehehe).

Bottomline? Take the risk. You only live once - as who you are now in this lifetime (baka sa susunod, aso ka na o palaka. Hindi natin masabi ang karma). Love like you never got hurt. Maybe it's right. Some people may not have been even worth that honest chance. There are rotten apples pero dedma na. Isipin mo na lang, para saan pa ang karma kung wala sila? To my friends, V, G, J and K na ginawa akong sponge at hingahan ng sama ng loob for the past months (baka patayin niyo ako kapag sinabi ko mga pangalan niyo e), believe there is that someone who will be worth spending your every single moment with. God has His mysterious ways of showing who and telling you when. Huwag ka lang maatat. Pero huwag ka ring sobrang ingat at sobrang takot. Sabi nga ni Rholando (aka Rhonda), take the risk. You never know when it just might be worth it :)